I've been sending letters. I've been writing them, dating them, stamping them and sending them off. But you haven't been reading my letters. You haven't been reading the letters I've been sending to you. Don't you like my letters? They have love and longing sewn between every line. My letters are not signed "sincerely" or "cordially", they don't have "thanks" written across the bottom followed by my name. My letters aren't business letters. Or Junk mail. They aren't sepinas for court, or warrants for your arrest. Although you get those kinds of letters don't you? I wonder if you read those letters. The bad letters. But I know you don't read my letters. My letters are signed with I love you's and nicknames. I signed all my letters with the name only you know. You do remember it don't you? Do you still remember the name you used to call me? I hope so. I hope you aren't mistaking my letters for something they are not. I do not write my letters to bash you. My letters have nothing about hate in them. Though I used to send letters like that. My letters have changed. Don't you know that? I wish you would just read my letters. I've been sending letters. I've been writing them, dating them, stamping them and sending them off. I've been sending you letters. I've been sending them to an address you no longer read letters at. You don't open that mailbox anymore and collect your letters. I've been sending my letters to an address that you'll never get your letters from again. You'll never return to that address to collect my letters. But I'll keep sending my letters to you. And I hope you don't get to read them. You promised to never return to that address again. But if you do, know that my letters will be waiting. My letters will always come. You can count on my letters coming. I wish you could read my letters. I wish you had an address to get letters at. I can't address my letters "The Little Blue Sailboat somewhere in between Massachusetts and Key West". The letter delivery man would not get on a boat and chase after you just to deliver my letters. My letters aren't that important. My letter's aren't that important to the mail delivery man. But my letters are that important to me. And I hope my letters are that important to you. Maybe someday you'll have a new place, with a new address. And then you'll have a new mailbox that will collect my letters. And then you will read my letters. Won't you please read my letters? If you could just read one of my letters you wouldn't be on your little blue sailboat. Instead you would be reading my letters, and you'd be writing me letters back. Wouldn't that be great? You could read my letters. And then I could read your letters. And I would always know when you sent me a letter. Because your the only one that would send me letters. And you'll always know when I sent you a letter. Because I'm the only one that did. I'm the only one that still does. And they are still coming. Believe me, my letters are still being sent. They are still going to the address you are not longer at. But I'll keep writing my letters. I promised I'd send you letters. So thats what I'm doing. I'm sending my letters. My letters that you don't read. But if you did you would know that they all start with "Hi Daddy" and they all end with "I'm so glad you don't drink anymore. I love you" and they are signed "I'll always be Daddy's little girl - Silly". And in between they are filled with stories of my life. My letters are filled with memories of us. When you let me skip school so we could watch Monster's Inc. at the Eastfield Mall. And when we took Max to Camp Massasoit and I was scared because there was a no trespassing sign. My letters would make you laugh, just like your letters made me laugh. My letters are like the PostSecret letters in the book you bought me that you couldn't afford. Except I don't want my letters to be secrets. I want my letters to go to you. I want you to read my letters. You would be proud if you could read my letters. My letters. My letters that I've been sending to you. My letters that you haven't been reading. My letters that I'm writing, dating, stamping, and sending off to you at an address where you'll never go to collect my letters.
